I doubt it.
Do you ever wrestle with overwhelming doubt?
I do.
I know God's got a plan and that His timing is perfect, but I begin to wonder IF I'm the right person for His plan and IF I missed or ignored His promptings. In times like this, I bombard my brain with questions like:
IF this is God's will, why do I still struggle with loneliness?
Why aren't more people excited about what God is doing?
Am I a good investment for my church and good leader for my staff?
Am I doing this all wrong? What if I screw things up?
Have I set my kids up for success or failure — am I experimenting with their destinies?
Can I really dig roots and stay here for a LONG time?
Is God proud of me?
Ok, ok… please don’t worry ! This is NOT a cry for help — so, before you get all concerned about me, please KNOW, I’ve been in this long enough to NOT allow these thoughts to overwhelm me… IF anything, they only strengthen my determination to overcome!
But, let’s be honest people, we need more than Facebook friends or Instagram followers -- we long for genuine relationships right in the trenches where we do life -- where we fight our battles. We need people standing with us not pointing at us. Doubt says they don't exist (or at least not for you)... but, I’m smiling with my sleeves rolled up and fists clinched as I declare:
Doubt is a punk!
He's a hater, poser and crippler. He causes you to focus on your feelings and fears. He distracts you from spending time with Jesus and reading God's Word. Doubt causes you to withdraw, take fewer risks and entertain depression. I HATE DOUBT!
I refuse to let doubt rule & reign in my life.
No Way! Absolutely NOT!!
As I prayed about all this (late last night), a few thoughts -- from God -- encouraged my heart:
Right decisions are simply acts in obedience to the purposes of God. He will lead us right through doubt & on to destiny!
When I doubt myself I feel disconnected from God. Because I know He has no doubts (even in me).
Doubts are stepping stones across the river of defeat – certainty awaits on the other side… so, keep stepping... MOVE!
“Do all things without grumbling or questioning” Philippians 2:14… these words were spoken by the Apostle Paul to inward-focused, doubt-filled, believers (like us).
Selfishness & insecurity are constantly trying to replace faith with flesh. We want to feel everything NOW. Fight for faith!
I'm NOT running away, making excuses or hiding in the shadows. I know what God asked me to do and where He asked me to do it. I’m IN it to WIN it! Yes!!
I'm learning to doubt my doubts!
Q: Where are YOU at with doubt?
stepping on & stepping over my doubts,
Chilly
